You may have been physically and emotionally neglected by your parents. That neglect left a hole in your psyche. You are the only one now left to fill that hole (it should have been your parents' job.)
He is not your problem, that hole is.
That hole is the manifestation of your sense of the "self", or lack of it.
So, the question is how to make that "self" bigger so that it "covers" more of your physical being.
First, do not run away from yourself. You are the only one who qualifies to occupy that space. Do not let anyone else into that space. It is yours. Claim it.
Second, exercise control over that space, by becoming more self-aware. Most of the stuff that goes through our mind each day are not rational thoughts but reflexes, conditoned by childhood circumstances that are long gone but the reflexes stayed, controlling what we think and do without us realizing. Self-awareness raises them into the conscious level, so that we have more chances to think rationally.
Engage in activities over which you have total control from start to finish so that your mind is alway in the position of initiating. Train the mind to take charge, rather than to wait to be told what to do. Not easy.
Realize that happiness is a choice. Every time you are in front of a mirrow, make an exaggerated smile. Most of the behaviors we have as an adult are grown out of childhood experiences and then became hardwired. Hard to change but not impossible. When you focus on sad things out of habit, you become a sad person. If you look for happy things, they do exist.
"To live is to suffer." Effort is needed to make it less so. If what in front of you looks bleak, move a few steps back and take in a larger part of the picture. You'll find bright spots if you look for them. It's up to you.
非常痛苦，已经熬了一个多月了，看了医生，吃了两周的抗忧郁药，没有效果，反而引起肝区不适，现在我自己停药了，反正吃药也难受。我以前二次犯病都没有吃药，挺了6亇月后好了，这次不吃药也有可能到时间自愈吗？现在我度日如年，感觉痛苦的活不下去了…亲们，能帮帮我吗？
Keep Pain in the Past by Dr Chris Cortman
他在FL有诊所，你可以联系他，反正现在都是视频
南无大慈大悲观世音菩萨摩诃萨
南无大慈大悲观世音菩萨摩诃萨
南无大慈大悲观世音菩萨摩诃萨
去主动联系初恋，希望与他聊天与视频能让你释怀。
祝福！
真正抗抑郁的药家医是不能开的，你需要去看专科（心理）医生。
我母亲也有忧郁症，我是有家族史的。生完孩子有发过，还有后面也有发过。我就通过追剧，干院子里杂活等分散注意力。另一面就告诉自己这些事情都是暂时的，都会过去，让自己放松，给自己打气。还要告诉自己忧郁症就是一种疾病，和别的所有疾病一样，既然是疾病就要和它较力，不能够不保护自己任由这个疾病控制住。我还有配合艾灸等。我从来没有吃过西药。曾经在最难熬的时候见过两次咨询师，但是发现咨询师不能给我任何帮助。到后来咨询师也对我说你想得很清楚。后来就没有去过了。最近有学习佛法，打坐，念经等都有帮助。其实就是自己训练自己的显/潜意识不要关注在那些你不能控制不能得到的东西上面，万缘放下。对治精神方面的疾病还是要从心理层面入手，这样会比较对症。希望你能早点熬过去。
每天300拜，出一身汗。睡觉也会改善的。慢慢一切都会好起来的
我有个朋友回国去见初恋， 初恋先打了预防针， 说我现在体重增加一倍， 头发掉了一半。。。
见面时，对面走过没有认出来 。。。
朋友回来说，什么掉了一半头发啊， 几乎全秃了， 肚子比怀孕的女子还大啊。。。
完全断了念想。
视频， 就是现代的风月宝鉴。
如果这里找不到合适的，国内有很多心理咨询的平台，视频咨询效果一样的好
祝你早日走出困境。
我相信你的问题是因为躯干部分突然紧张而触发的，你可以在家里长时间泡温度比较高的热水浴，估计一个小时候就有能缓解。
但是一定一定要防止浴后着凉，连续泡几天，把身体都泡软了，睡眠就能好一点，然后身体就会逐渐恢复。
期间服用逍遥丸会有帮助的。
祝你早日恢复，加油
逍遥丸链接在这里：https://www.amazon.com/Relaxx-Extract-160mg-Pills-Bottle/dp/B013IISLQK/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=%E9%80%8D%E9%81%A5%E4%B8%B8&qid=1612394343&sr=8-1
1、高蛋白低碳水少加工饮食、增加摄取富含益生菌的发酵食物、补充Omega-3及维他命D。
2、多晒太阳多运动。
3、发掘拓展兴趣爱好、寻求朋友支持、有条件的话可以考虑养只宠物（一年前领养了一只狗狗很治愈）。
4、尝试5-HTP、圣约翰草、Sam-e这些非处方调节情绪的保健品看看有无帮助。
5、精力好转的情况下可以找找做义工的机会、看一些针对抑郁症的书籍视频借鉴借鉴他人经验。
6、瑜伽、冥想、正念，凡事换个角度多看正向的一面（譬如半杯水是看有的半杯还是缺的半杯）。
7、推荐一本书《被讨厌的勇气》，微信读书app有。情绪低落的时候读书对我有很大帮助。
相信自己一定会走出来，祝早日康复！
佛罗里达加州有裸体海滩
其他各州都有俱乐部
每周有时间去看一下（找个理由运动下）；或者找个小鲜肉陪伴一下也好，活着比什么都好。。。。。给你加油哦
！
something that you didn't get as a child.
You may have been physically and emotionally neglected by your parents. That neglect left a hole in your psyche. You are the only one now left to fill that hole (it should have been your parents' job.)
He is not your problem, that hole is.
That hole is the manifestation of your sense of the "self", or lack of it.
So, the question is how to make that "self" bigger so that it "covers" more of your physical being.
First, do not run away from yourself. You are the only one who qualifies to occupy that space. Do not let anyone else into that space. It is yours. Claim it.
Second, exercise control over that space, by becoming more self-aware. Most of the stuff that goes through our mind each day are not rational thoughts but reflexes, conditoned by childhood circumstances that are long gone but the reflexes stayed, controlling what we think and do without us realizing. Self-awareness raises them into the conscious level, so that we have more chances to think rationally.
Engage in activities over which you have total control from start to finish so that your mind is alway in the position of initiating. Train the mind to take charge, rather than to wait to be told what to do. Not easy.
Realize that happiness is a choice. Every time you are in front of a mirrow, make an exaggerated smile. Most of the behaviors we have as an adult are grown out of childhood experiences and then became hardwired. Hard to change but not impossible. When you focus on sad things out of habit, you become a sad person. If you look for happy things, they do exist.
"To live is to suffer." Effort is needed to make it less so. If what in front of you looks bleak, move a few steps back and take in a larger part of the picture. You'll find bright spots if you look for them. It's up to you.
Look up the term "cbt".
Disclaimer: not a professional advice.
如果你在加拿大，补充4000IU大致上也是安全的。先补起来，再查。找心里医生。另外想象一下自杀万一没死成情况将更糟，什么事都不是万无一失的。看walking Dead等悲催的影视剧，你就有可能开始庆幸自己的生活。
早上和下午服金匮肾气丸+四逆散， 春天主要肝气升发，四逆散疏肝，金匮肾气丸可以在滋阴的基础上升阳。
去教会， 耶稣会帮助你。还有药不要随便停， 服药听药，要听医生的。多运动。 祝你早点好起来